Waking up for Fajr
Waking up for fajr seems to be getting harder and harder, when I try to go to sleep early I get this feeling of reading some eman rushin books, listening to speeches and watching NBA games.
As a result I don’t go to sleep until pretty late, like yesterday I came back from the Shakyh Hamza Yusuf Minara Program, Mashallah It was nice. I got to give him a pound for the first time and saw him in person. It’s kind of weird seeing a person for the first time, after you have been hearing him for so long on the internet and reading their books.
That wasn’t easy, as soon as he got off the stage everyone ran after him like he was wrapped with a million dollars. I was able to slickly penetrate through the crowd and eventually get him to say salaam to me. People were going crazy, from the men to the women. It’s good to know we have scholars who can ground themselves with a lot of Muslims who are feeling their wisdom and approach to practically establishing Muslim communities here.
So after I came home, I ate desi food, destroyed my stomach, clogged up my arteries and ended up watching the Dallas vs New Orleans game. That was a waste because shatan got to me and I delayed isha till the 4th quarter.
Time to prioritize the deen with a fixed schedule. I noticed this is becoming a habit and that’s causing me to miss fajr or fagr as the egyptians say. Astugfurillah. Astukfurillah. I need to condition myself to go to sleep early and wake up early. I even set my alarm, then when I get up, “shatan is like saad you got some time keep resting”, before you know it I missed fajr.
I have to make it up when I wake up and that I always try to do. The problem is standards, As Muslim’s we gotta get the big picture, not like Picasso, his pictures are random and have no order.
My friend’s mom throws a jug of cold water on him to make sure he get’s up fajr. Haha, he basically wakes up with wudu. Makes sense. Shatan is made out of fire, cool him down to get the person up for fajr. I should hire a person to do that for me. Actually no, because what’s going to happen when that person leaves. It’s all about the heart and establishing tawhid and attaining taqwa.
So my point was if something is preventing you from praying or delaying your prayers, then it’s time to give it up or save it till after prayer. Especially if your addicted to it. It’s amazing for me to see some of us including me go out of our way to do things for the dunya, wait for roller coasters on six flag lines, but it seems like a journey to pray salat for 5 minutes. That’s the problem.
The solution is driving our energies in the right direction. May Allah swt prevent us from going astray and allow us to make up for our mistakes. Ameen.